So I realize my blog is not filled with a lot of words of encouragement or scriptures or things of the like, and I know that is what some of you expect since I’m “reverend”.
But, I decided a long time ago that I would share my truth no matter how good, bad, ugly or indifferent because maybe there is someone who is going through what I am going through and needs to know they are not alone. Or, maybe they are experiencing what I’m experiencing, and they need to know that their feelings, thoughts, etc. are Ok. That it is Ok to not be Ok.
I chose not to live behind a mask hiding my pains, disappointments, rejections, and frustrations. I chose not to “put on” everyday or on social media just to make others feel more comfortable. I chose to live my life authentically and with transparency because I believe and I know there are those who need to hear it, see it, and feel it. They need to know this journey is not a cake walk, faith is not easy, and there will be bumps along the way. And, they need to see how to maneuver and navigate the difficult parts of the journey.
This is my truth that I share, as I reflect on the last day of my birth month. I brought in this month in a spiral crying because friends had let me down, I allowed others to dictate how I celebrated me, and expectations were not met. I end this month in deep thought, processing all the highs and lows of the month, thanking God that although there were some bad and dark days, there were bright and joy-filled days. November may not have started how I wanted, but God gave me light to keep going.