God, can I ask you a question? Why am I like this? Why do my emotions go from 0 to 100 in a matter of seconds? Why do things consume me as emotionally as they do? Why am I so emotionally charged?
I really do not understand what is happening around me. I’m not trying to make anyone sick. Nor am I trying to catch or spread COVID to my family. I just wanted a few days. A few days without responsibilities to just be.
The last time I did this, I do not think it went so well, but THIS TIME, I ended the period feeling Ok.
And, then I made the call, and the drama started right back up. I attended that meeting, and the negativity boiled right to the surface. By the time I got back to my room, I was in a completely different space, and it was not good.
Now I have 15 hours before I leave this “sanctuary”, and I do not want to leave it in this way. What do I do?