Thorn In My Side

20/20 Vision… 🤦🏾‍♀️

It’s 11:59pm.

60 seconds until the start of not only a new year, but a new decade.

45 seconds…We wait in anticipation as the clock winds down. The promise of a fresh start, a new beginning, a rest button.

30 seconds… So many things to accomplish. So many goals to achieve. This year will be different from the last.

15 seconds… I want to be a better version of myself. I want to be healthier. More active. Go out more.

10… You type the message you’re going to send to that special someone.

9… Your finger’s on the button ready to hit send.

8… The excitement is crazy. You can’t contain yourself.

7… OH MY GOSH! THIS IS IT!

6… THINGS ARE GOING UP FROM HERE!

FIVE!!!!

FOUR!!!

THREE!!!

TWO!!!

ONE!!!!!

You hit the send button and shout HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

You made it!!! You just crossed over! You sent the message! (And a few others too).

The feeling of joy permeates the space. You are feeling good. Excited about what is to come.

16 minutes in… (still basking in excitement and laughter) Your phone rings!

The name on the screen makes you smile, so you excitedly answer.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! the voice says on the phone!

HAPPY NEW YEAR you say gleefully back.

But, there’s another voice in the background.

One that is not familiar, but you know all too well.

You brush it off and keep your smile!

It’s a New Year!

You’re not going to start it off with drama.

But, the voice gets louder and closer to the phone.

You inquire about the source but is told that it was nothing.

You keep smiling and brush it off again.

This. Is. 2020, and you will not start it with drama!

But, then it’s undeniable.

The voice is actually on the phone.

You ask again, but this time you’re met with “don’t do this. Don’t start anything today.”

Though you’re smilinh, you’re pissed off.

It’s 2020, and this is EXACTLY how it’s going to start.

You get off the phone, but it’s too late.

The damage had been done.

Your mood no longer light.

The insensitivity.

The disrespect.

It’s April 13, 2008 all over again.

But, this was supposed to be the better year.

This was supposed to be new beginnings and new starts.

But, the reality of it is…

The clock changed…

The calendar changed…

The decade changed…

But, the people and the problems stayed the same.

Guess they didn’t get the memo.

And, that sucks too!

Because I asked for 20/20 vision.

But, don’t like what I see.

Happy 20/20 to me… 😔

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